I just came back from my midwife appointment and it was a little disappointing. It turns out I do have to go back to the gynaecologist because of my low placenta.
At my 30 week ultrasound the lady was really convinced that my placenta wasn't going to give much trouble anymore since it moved up and didn't cover the exit anymore. But now the midwife told me that the placenta had to be at least 1 cm away from the opening to be able to say everything will be ok during delivery. The chance of a complication, like bleeding, is just to big when it is less than 1 cm. And that my chances for a C Section are still quite a bit increased, although she expects I am able to try for normal delivery. Had I wanted to deliver at home, which is common in Holland, I would not have been allowed. But since I planned on delivering in the hospital anyway, that wasn't a disappointment.
So now I got my next appointment planned with the gyno instead of the midwife. He is going to evaluate the situation, and he will perform another ultrasound to measure the exact distance of the placenta to the exit. After that we will see what he says. All I hope for at this point is that I will at least be able to try a natural birth instead of a planned C. Section.
I guess I am in general not that disappointed about going back to the gyno, although it feels way more social and cozy at the midwife. It is just the weird feeling of different opinions, being send back and forward from the midwife to the hospital etc. and thus not feeling like I am in control. And since I really prefer to be in control it is hard for me to still not know exactly what is going on and to feel insecure again in the next couple of weeks.....
I do however realize that in the end all that matters is good medical care and to end up with a healthy baby Jr and mommy!
I will keep you updated.
